Hello all of my fellow bloggers….. I am sorry that I have been gone for so long I know alot  of you love to read his blog, but I have had so much going on that I have not had one moment of peace.

So lets start with Brandon we went to the doctor on the 17th for his heart. Well the results were that his EKG showed his heart was not beating as hard as before, now they arent sure if its from the meds or the surgery. But they are going to keep him on the meds, because he has a odd shaped flap in the left chamber of his heart. The one that pumps the O2 and Blood in and out. Its working it just is not how they want it. So they have decided to keep a eye on it every 3mths and make sure it is not something that has a effect on his heart. The worst is they will have to do a surgery later on but so far not anytime soon.

Other than that Brandon has been great and is all healed up and ROTTEN as ever lol I have Pics I will be adding of Christmas at our house, my moms, and his dads. They had a great Christmas thanks to ACH and Frist STATE BANK in De Queen . They gifted us lots of great things. GOD BLESS PEOPLE WHO HELP THE ONE IN NEED!!!!

Ok the big news is for me anyway is I let BRANDON stay the night with someone for the 1st time in 3 yrs……..I know it was hard on me but also its a step I need to take. I have come to realize I can not shelter him all his life I can’t not pay attention to my other family members because he is getting to the point he dont need momma all the time.

Does that sound cruel NO it dosent especially when I have dedicated 3 years of my life to him and have not had one moment where I could relax with out something going on and now I have learned that that is what I need. I need a break every once in awhile. I am not saying go out every weekend, but I am saying at least 1x a month I need some alone time.

I cant sit back and worry if I am not around something is going to happen to him that is not the way to live a life.  I love him so much that I have to let others help me out. Thanks to all those who do, my mom, my BF Julie, my Aunt Ruth, cousin Zelda, all my friends who are always there for me, and my family I might have left out. I love you all and thank you sooooo much for your help these years and the ones to come you are the best.