There is nothing better in life but to have that one person who totally understands you and knows you love them no matter how long you are away…….that person is Marcela to me…you can find her at http://www.prayfornathan.org/blog/    

Lets see since the day I wrote my last post alot has happened. Alot of bad things for me good for Brandon. I don’t want to go in great detail about my bad but lets just say I am alone with the kids now for along time. Then I got sick , had lots of appt for Brandon at Little Rock, have had to find a good sitter for my kids while I worked, and last but not least we lost my kids great granny. So my month has been awful well the last 2mths have been awful. Trying to raise a special needs child along with all the others on my own has been a great challenge but luckily I have alot of support from alot of people. I just wish it was different but they way I look at it is GOD has a plan for everyone and you just have to make it work until you see what that plan will be.

Its spring Break this week and my kiddos are baddddd lol.All they want to do is play Halo ( which is getting on my nerves) or bug me all day. Joy of motherhood huh.

Yesterday we buried a wonderful woman named Madia Pollard. She was a great woman and will be missed dearly but she is better where she is now.

We also got a new little kitty lol her name is Nina

I have alot of people I talk to, I see, and that I love, but there is never anyone like the ones who know exactly what you are going through. I made this site to help support the ones who need each other. To give them hope, peace, and maybe smiles. They get to see Brandon grow, smile, play, even sick. I live in a small small town in the southwest corner of Arkansas. There is alot of us Special Needs parents as you like to call them. Some of us have children with sever needs, some just small disabilities. No matter what the challenge is I hope they all know we are not alone and we should not ever be. We need each other as a family.

I say this because I worked with a woman who was my mentor as I call it. She helped me find a easier route to the hospital, we traded equipment, we talked about our children and what we had to fight for and the problems we had. We knew when we looked at each other that we needed each other. I hope she knows that is how I felt. I know her family does. She lost her 17 yr old son yesterday. It breaks my heart to have to hear that because even though it is a child he not only was that he was a fighter, a lover of life, a angel from GOD that touched soooo many people. And only the ones who have children that they have fought for all of their lives understand what I am saying. You never want to give up not even when they take the last breath. You never say oh I cant because of this or that, you just do it because they cant and you have to be the Rock of Salvation for them. Sometimes people look at us and never even know how we feel or what is going on in our lives because we don’t announce it to the world.

Believe me I don’t always tell you about the little things that worry me or the little negatives we have with Brandon. Our lives are not always happy go lucky but we try our best to make what we can out of what we have. So to my friend I love you! I just cant say it enough and I don’t care if the sky is falling I will be there. That goes to any of you that know me you know I am good hearted maybe a little goofy at times, but I am in love with life.

God never gives us to much that we cant handle.

Seems like there is never enough hours in the day anymore for me to get stuff done. I miss my kids when I have to work and I miss my mom because she is working nights. I have also started back to school for the semester. I am taking  four classes two online, and two at the school. Then I have to work almost every day from 2-10 at night. So this is how my schedules is looking nowadays lol

Mon:

• 8:00 therapy for Brandon
• 9:30 Geometry for Elementary
• 11:00 come home do some online school work
• 12:00 cook supper for kiddos and clean
• 1:00 get ready for work
• 2:00 -10:00 work
• 10:15 come home visit with my hubby
• 11:00 off to bed to start the next day

Tues:

• 8:00 Fine Arts
• 9:30 home
• 10:00 try to do house work or school work
• 12:00 cook supper for kiddos
• 1:00 get ready for work
• 2:00- 10:00 off to work
• 10:15 home
• 11:00 bed

Pretty much the same routine everyday of the week then on the weekends Jordan has Basketball, or they want friends over. I never have more than a hour with my family anymore. I guess that is what happens when you have to grow up huh lol.

Good thing is Brandon is doing Awesome. We did have a episode where he was really cranky crying etc. and I couldn’t figure out why. Then I asked my husband if he had seen his Keppra meds and he of course didn’t remember to give them to him. So now I do that everyday before I go to bed. Its not that my husband isn’t a good dad its just that sometimes he doesn’t remember to do the meds. Its ok because as long as I give them before the next day hes ok. So now he is doing great and is very happy this weekend.

I have to work on this Sunday but I am hoping I can see my mommy and daddy (lol) before I go to work. So everyone have a wonderful day and try to load yourself down you can tell its stressful.

Ok I have been reading all about my wonderful friends son Nathan over at Pray for Nathan they have been some busy busy bees over there. I want to try something new with Brandon and I think that it would be a good thing for him to learn to communicate better with his peers and family. So we are in the process of seeing what we need and how we can do this for him. No I am not trying to be a copy cat I just would love to see him do this.

Whats the next step

• Well let see we have to talk to speech therapist
• I have already sent a email to the man who is the representative for Arkansas
• Get a Script I am sure
• Find the one best suited for his needs.

I will keep you update as I go through the process. I do know you can learn more about communication devices online.

Here is a video for you

Bully Bear Pollard 2009-2011

Well this has been a awful week for us. This is the 1st week we have been without our wonderful fawn boxer Bully Bear. He had a tumor is his stomach that caused him not to be able to gain weight. They were not able to save him they tried everything to help him but we did not want him to suffer so we had him go to doggy heaven. We miss you Bully and hope you have a wonderful time with Shorty.

Lance got this for Christmas and has played with it longer and more than any other toy he has. I love that he has such a imagination like I did when I was a kid.

Happy New Year everyone!!! How have all you wonderful awesome people been lately? I know where have I been and what are you doing not updating us. Well things kind of came to a stand still in our lives as far as what Brandon was doing new etc. Or I could never find time to update because of school, work, and the kids. But this will be a great 1st day back to the blog. I have tons of pictures of Christmas and Bradon doing therapy. I hope you enjoy them all since its been so long since you seen us.

Let me start out by saying the new year will be great for us all I can feel it in my heart. I have never really looked forward to a new year but I am bond and determined to make this one the best ever. Why because we have been on a downward slope these last few months as far as not being able to get anything I want done done. So I have made a few ALL YEAR resolutions lol.

1. Keep up better with my blog
2. Organize my home better.
3. Take more time for myself every once in awhile.
4. Not to gain any weight ( which is weird because usually it is to lose weight )
5. Take time to keep up better with my friends and their lives ( yes Marcela this means you mostly lol)
6. Love my family to the extent they are disgusted lol.
7. Just be the person I am and nothing else.
8. Have a good year in College.
9. Say nice things about people ( you know because it eats them alive lol)
10. Be thankful for what I have and that I have GOD in my life. I chose this one last because I have mastered this one but still want on my list.

Lets see what has been going on the last few months…….

• Brandon got bot-ox
• Brandon got his wheelchair fixed
• Is learning to stand and doing a awesome job
• I passed my classes and on to the next ones.
• My kids had a great Christmas and a Happy New Year but they are back to school today.

I am hoping for lots of good things this year so I am leaving you with all these pictures we have taken and hope you enjoy them all.

Lots of L0ve and Friendship,

Amber J. Pollard

Therapy Pitcures

Mommy Time

Christmas time

Lately Brandon has been extremely spoilt. He wants to be held alot or just plain cranky about certain things. Last night I was sitting rocking him and decided he needed some tummy time. I rolled him over on his belly and went about my chores while I could. Well that did not last long at all. I didn’t want to pick him up because I thought he might get the hint he needed to lay down for awhile and work those muscles. I noticed his head was turned from me so I turned it toward me and a thought came to my head. After I had done this he was happy because he could see me so a thought started running through my head about his way seeing things. ( I am sorry if it snds like rambling it is 5 am here lol) Here I was trying to do chores and he was just wanting his mommy. Am I selfish for thinking he needs to work his muscles? Should I pick him up when he crys he is 4 and he does totally rely on me? I mean yes I pick him up but I mean every time.Then I said his name and he totally gave me a I love you to mommy smile. Of course I had to stop what I was doing and love on him just for that. A child’s smile can make you feel so warm inside. I know I have had alot going on in my life lately and the one constant thing I have to look forward to is my kids smiles.

Most parents dont sit and think about thier kids smiles all the time they think how am I going to pay for college or whats for supper. Not me I think about what they are going to do the next day and how can I improve that day for them? I guess having Brandon changes my out look on life, I dont care what the future has in store for me right now I just know what I have in front of me is great and I am going to enjoy all of this while I can.

Christmas time is coming up and I feel like it could not go any faster because this year has become the worst year ever. I just want to start the new year with new ideas, new things, new ways of life. I actually look forward to turning 32 yes 32 and starting my early thirties with more joy and happiness than I can stand. I am sick of drama and want nothing but goodness all of 2011.

I wish I had more to talk about but nothing that has been going on has been worth talking about. I do have some appts for Brandon coming up so maybe I can get something out of that soon to talk about.  I hope everyone has a great chirstmas.

 I was sent this video on my facebook when I opened it I never realized the pull this man has in voice. Its like you cant stop listening to him he is awesome and I wanted to share his story in hope someone will see it and grab him up to sing for their record deals. God Bless you  Bo and I wish you and your family the very best ever.

You may not recognize 19-year-old Double Springs singer, Bo Steele, but after an impromptu Huntsville Hospital waiting room performance was posted to Facebook, he has become quite popular. Steele’s videos have garnered hundreds of comments and friend requests on his Facebook page. Now, the teen is adjusting to his new status as a “local celebrity.”

Bo Steele and his friend Ben Rubino joined us in the WHNT NEWS 19 studios to discuss the social media explosion. The two have been playing together for years under the name ‘Black Tomorrow’, but after a simple Facebook post, this duo’s musical future is looking much brighter

I got this from http://www.whnt.com/news/whnt-local-singer-finds-internet-stardom,0,5180207.story

all started while Steele was visiting his grandmother in Huntsville Hospital after she suffered a stroke. While in the waiting room, Steele’s father announced Bo’s talent for singing. Hospital worker Lakesha Westmoreland asked Bo to sing for them, and Lakesha asked if she could record the performance. After soulful renditions of the old hymnal “Victory in Jesus” and “I’ll Fly Away”, Lakesha asked permission to post the video to her Facebook page; and the rest, as they say, is history.

“The next thing I know, they pull me into the lobby and everybody is telling me to sing all these songs,” said Bo, “so I just sang gospel hymns because that was the easiest thing I could think of.”

It only took a couple of days for Bo’s vocal stylings to start a social media frenzy.

“I got home and like three days past, and I had almost 2,000 friends already on my Facebook and 10,000 views on YouTube,” scoffed Steele, “and it went crazy after that.”

Steele says the positive response has been both humbling and overwhelming.

“I get like 800 messages, and I want to read all of them and I want to reply to them, but you can’t; it’s so hard… so many people,” says Bo.

Many Facebook and YouTube comments from Bo’s fans say his music inspires them. Others urge Steele and his buddy Ben Rubio to take it to the next level.

“I’m really praying for something real big to happen so our dreams can come true and we can do what we’ve been wanting to do for a while,” said Steele.

For Bo and Ben, Internet stardom just might be the springboard they’ve been hoping for.

“I want to change the world,” said Steele, “I mean music is real, everybody connects with music. If it wasn’t for music and rhythm, we wouldn’t be able to walk. It goes into everything you do, and I think its powerful enough to fix the problems in this world. That’s what I want to do with it.”

Many social media comments suggest that Steele should stick with gospel, but he says music is his life and he doesn’t want to limit himself to one genre. He says he’ll sing anything and everything.